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I had a boyfriend once, his name was Bruno…he found Jesus under a wardrobe… rescued by the fire brigade…Jesus had come out of the closet to save him. ‘Out of the closet and up into your heart,’ raved the Pastor (152)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

The word “boyfriend” captured my attention immediately. I have been so caught up in finding the narrators gender and the gender he\/she prefers, and this passage may have solidified my opinion.<\/p>\n

For some reason I am seeing Jesus as the narrator himself\/herself, slyly talking in first-person. He\/she is seemingly\u00a0stuck<\/strong> under a wardrobe and even\u00a0hidden<\/strong> in the “closet.” Then, there is a “rescue.” A rescue from himself\/herself. A rescue from his\/her own\u00a0sexuality.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sexuality is something that can either set you free or suck you in. This passage is the moment of freedom<\/strong> for the Narrator. I find it ever so intriguing that there is two terms that suggest suppression of the Narrator’s true\u00a0self<\/strong>, and that is the use of the words “[rescue]” and “save.” The imagery used to capture the meaning, feeling and reality of ‘coming out of the closet’ is magnificent, while answering a very frustrating, reoccurring question: what is the gender of the narrator?<\/p>\n

Though, the use of Jesus in this passage is so clich\u00e9, it ties the fact that ‘God knows everything you do and you do not’ into the plot of the novel. I proposed earlier that the Narrator is using Jesus as a double of himself\/herself; he\/she “had a boyfriend once” and he\/she seemingly came “out of the closet.” I believe he\/she is, in fact, a he<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

Suppression<\/b>\u00a0<\/strong>is prevalent in this passage. Suppression of the gay community. In this instance, he needs to be\u00a0saved<\/strong> from his sexuality and\u00a0rescued\u00a0<\/strong>from his own mind just to find\u00a0himself??<\/strong> Ridiculous. He found refuge once the pastor “raved” the truth, “raved” reality and “raved” sanity, that there is nothing more real than what is within your heart and nothing more genuine than love. Once it is found, all bets are off, the “wardrobe” is off and the “closet” is gone. I believe that his passage has made him, himself all the way to the core<\/strong> of his heart, where Jesus is ringing bells of true identity.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I had a boyfriend once, his name was Bruno…he found Jesus under a wardrobe… rescued by the fire brigade…Jesus had come out of the closet to save him. ‘Out of the closet and up into your heart,’ raved the Pastor (152) The word “boyfriend” captured my attention immediately. I have been so caught up in … Continue reading sHE…<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2034,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[93617],"tags":[93539,28659,93541,1231,93530,93538,93529,93537,1151,23763,93494,2754,93534,93535,78230,2290,93531,93528,93540,93533,93493],"class_list":["post-146","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-2014-blog-post","tag-coming-out","tag-freedom","tag-gay","tag-gender","tag-he","tag-herself","tag-hidden","tag-himself","tag-identity","tag-imagery","tag-jeanette-winterson","tag-jesus","tag-rescue","tag-save","tag-self","tag-sexuality","tag-she","tag-stuck","tag-suppression","tag-the-closet","tag-written-on-the-body"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/146","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2034"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=146"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/146\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=146"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=146"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.dickinson.edu\/everythinginbetween\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=146"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}