A Misread Love (Catullus 99)
Michele Martire examines the background behind Catullus’ poem addressed to his young male beloved Juventius. Explaining the conventions of ancient pederasty, and discussing the other poems addressed to Juventius in the Catullan corpus, she notes how Catullus viciously degrades himself. He lowers himself when he should be the dominant partner, in a desperate bid to recapture the affection of Juventius.
Surripui tibi, dum ludis, mellite Iuventi,
- suaviolum dulci dulcius ambrosia.
Verum id non impune tuli: namque amplius horam
- suffixum in summa me memini esse cruce,
dum tibi me purgo nec possum fletibus ullis
- tantillum vestrae demere saevitiae.
Nam simul id factum est, multis diluta labella
- guttis abstersisti omnibus articulis,
ne quicquam nostro contractum ex ore maneret,
- tamquam commictae spurca saliva lupae.
Praeterea infesto miserum me tradere amori
- non cessasti omnique excruciare modo,
ut mi ex ambrosia mutatum iam foret illud
- suaviolum tristi tristius elleboro.
Quam quoniam poenam misero proponis amori,
- numquam iam posthac basia surripiam.
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