“But you are gazing at me the way God gazed at Adam and I am embarrassed by your look of love and possession and pride.” Page 18
“The way God gazed at Adam.” Man is made “in the image of God,” so is Louise (assuming this is Louise) seeing herself in the narrator? Does she see a kindred Spirit, but one that she has created for herself? Was Adam truly the most spectacular thing God had ever seen, after spending an eternity amidst the תֹהוּ וָבֹהוּ (chaos and nothingness)? Was her marriage the nothingness and the chaos that inspired her to create the world, and eventually make the narrator her Adam?
Adam was not enough though, there has to be a Lilith, and eventually an Eve. A “mistake” before the “final draft.” If the narrator is Adam, who will be Lilith? Who will be Eve? Is this the forbearing of discontent? Of the self-righteousness and anger? Is Eden the bedroom? When will they be stripped of their innocence, their ignorance, their paradise? What will be their ultimate sin, the consumption of the forbidden fruit? Is this affair not the fruit, but the creation of the world itself?
“I am embarrassed by your look of love and possession and pride.” Perhaps being “Adam” is more for her sake (assuming the narrator uses she pronouns (my own personal assumption)) than for her lover’s, in that this is the very first time for her that she has felt this way, that she has been looked upon with this combination of strong emotion. This being the first time for her, perhaps her only point of reference is the very first human. But while she is in the presence of “God,” is she not as powerful, as almighty? Is the fact that she can invoke these feelings not divine?